flowers!

flowers!

pansexualrevolutionary:

Follow for more beautiful things!
We finally find this
Then you’re gone
Been chasin’ rainbows all along
And you have broken every single fucking rule
And I have loved you like a fool

ketika.

sekarang pukul 16.21 di jakarta selatan.

gue duduk memandangi gedung yang masih dibangun, dikelilingi para orang asing yang tak pernah familiar dan udara langit Jakarta yang tak pernah jelas.

selagi menghangatkan badan dari dinginnya ac kantor jahanam, gue terpikir tentang krisis, tentang apa yang gue jalani hari ini, tentang banyak kejadian yang menimpa gue hingga gue bisa jadi dina 25 tahun yang sebenarnya biasa saja. lalu, gue pun kecewa.

banyak hal yang selalu ingin gue lakukan dan gue jadikan daftar, namun gue sadar wacana itu malah tidak menjadikan gue kemana-mana

ketika dua menit gue terduduk di sini, gue bertanya pada udara “what I am doing here?” dan mulut gue pun menjawab sendiri “work. earning money. what else?”

"is this what you want?"
“everybody’s doing the same.”

lo tau, banyak hal yang sebenarnya ingin gue capai di usia ini. gue jadi ingat gue pernah menulis surat untuk dina lima tahun kemudian ketika gue 21 tahun.

di surat tersebut, gue menuliskan gue akan bertemu pria baik dan melengkapi karakter gue, menikah, dan bereksplorasi keseruan hidup bersama. lalu gue berhasil menerbitkan novel dan akan menjadikannya film yang akan tayang di bioskop. gue berpesan pada dina masa depan untuk tetap menyukai arctic monkeys, dan menjaga keluarga gue lebih baik lagi.

dan yang terjadi kini adalah gue sedang berada dalam situasi penasaran apa yang berikutnya akan terjadi dalam kehidupan gue.

apakah gue akan bertemu laki-laki yang semakin bullshit, atau justru idaman gue di masa lalu akan kembali seperti yang seseorang bilang

apakah gue akan berhenti dari pekerjaan boring ini dan berani untuk menekuni apa yang gue cita-citakan

gue nyatanya hidup dalam penuh ketidaktahuan


saking tidak tahunya, rasanya gue ingin menangis seharian

dan gue merasa bersalah pada dina 21 tahun karena gue belum berhasil melakukan satu pun yang dia inginkan.

sedih.

(Source: lacooletchic)

<3

<3

the mood.

I teach people how to treat me by what I will allow.

Stephen R. Covey (via abscidium)

(Source: quotethat)

tryings:

Daughter - Shallows

"if you leave
when i go
you’ll find me
in the shallows”

the-streetstyle:

Sohovia andyheart

There’s a difference between somebody who wants you and somebody who would do anything to keep you.

Remember that.

Dare to be strong and courageous. That is the road. Venture anything.

Sherwood Anderson (via thresca)
1. 3 turn offs
Bullshit things
people who can&#8217;t keep their promise
people who disrespect to others, feel like s/he is the smartest in the world so they don&#8217;t listen
2. 3 turn ons
people who do nice things sincerely
smile
people who keep their words no matter what happen
3. Phobia
snake. 
4. Celebrity Crush
G Dragon
Micky Yoochun
Kim Soo Hyun
Fedi Nuril
5. Smoke/Drink
nope at both
6.Favorite Movie
August Rush
Crazy Little Thing Called Love
Legally Blonde
7. Name
Dina Agustina Suardi, or just call me dinaagust
8. Favorite Band
Vampire Weekend
9. Favorite Music Artist
G Dragon
10. Embarassing Memory
A lot of things happened, so I can&#8217;t even remember one :))
11. Last Thing Ate
Herbalife choco banana smoothie
12. Last Text Received
"Tiket WATERBOOM PIK HARGA 85RB"
13. 4 Things you hate
a boy who confuse about his own thoughts
my nose pore
my mom&#8217;s habit of hiding the closet&#8217;s keys
a really short weekend
14. 4 Things you love
A night with stars
my confidence and coolness (AHAHAHA)
my friends
his eyes
15. Random Fact
I have obsession with lipstick
16. 3 people you miss
my grandfathers who I haven&#8217;t even met at once
the man that has a name begin in O
cloudy
17. Tattoo you want
Daisy flowers and a milky way
18. A Regret
nothing.
19. Wish at 11:11
nothing
20. Craziest thing done
I emailed the person in 30 days with my poems and stories. that was the silliest thing ever I could ever make but Thank God for my stupidity we are friends now.

1. 3 turn offs

  • Bullshit things
  • people who can’t keep their promise
  • people who disrespect to others, feel like s/he is the smartest in the world so they don’t listen

2. 3 turn ons

  • people who do nice things sincerely
  • smile
  • people who keep their words no matter what happen

3. Phobia

  • snake. 

4. Celebrity Crush

  • G Dragon
  • Micky Yoochun
  • Kim Soo Hyun
  • Fedi Nuril

5. Smoke/Drink

  • nope at both

6.Favorite Movie

  • August Rush
  • Crazy Little Thing Called Love
  • Legally Blonde

7. Name

  • Dina Agustina Suardi, or just call me dinaagust

8. Favorite Band

  • Vampire Weekend

9. Favorite Music Artist

  • G Dragon

10. Embarassing Memory

  • A lot of things happened, so I can’t even remember one :))

11. Last Thing Ate

  • Herbalife choco banana smoothie

12. Last Text Received

"Tiket WATERBOOM PIK HARGA 85RB"

13. 4 Things you hate

  • a boy who confuse about his own thoughts
  • my nose pore
  • my mom’s habit of hiding the closet’s keys
  • a really short weekend

14. 4 Things you love

  • A night with stars
  • my confidence and coolness (AHAHAHA)
  • my friends
  • his eyes

15. Random Fact

  • I have obsession with lipstick

16. 3 people you miss

  • my grandfathers who I haven’t even met at once
  • the man that has a name begin in O
  • cloudy

17. Tattoo you want

  • Daisy flowers and a milky way

18. A Regret

  • nothing.

19. Wish at 11:11

  • nothing

20. Craziest thing done

  • I emailed the person in 30 days with my poems and stories. that was the silliest thing ever I could ever make but Thank God for my stupidity we are friends now.